January 21, 2019
Which Brojo course does this reflection apply to?
Mastery of Emotions Beginner
What are the main insights you had about yourself in doing this course?
1. That a lot of positive desirable emotions I take responsibility for managing, whereas I accept (and have even indulged) less desirable more negative traits. 2. That my greatest happiness has indeed come when I have put in the work to earn it rather than take short term hits (one problem is that I have often then convinced myself I can’t take the rewards). 3. Like Dan I am disgusted by low confidence (in self, in family) and by non-constructive selfless behaviour. This partly explains the sheer extent of my eventual depression.
What actions did you take and how did you feel during those experiences?
I have continued to put in the work without expecting too much. I have started salsa classes and go dancing at clubs every fortnight. I have controlled my temper as previously explained to Dan, and stopped snapping at people who I do not need to confront. I feel more comfortable with myself and more optimistic, busy and sharp. I still find expressing attraction and initiating eye contact (in clubs) difficult although my confidence when dancing is higher than in years. However I feel this is no longer due to shame but due to “rustiness” and excitement at my own potential (a bit like fear of success as discussed before).
What is the one main thing you want to remember from this course and keep applying to your life?
To channel anger, self-disgust constructively rather than indulge them.
What can you do to ensure that what you learned from this course continues to improve your life?
Maintain the focus already described at all times, without (as I have done before) making exceptions and turning in on myself e.g. for family or potential partners.
What was your favourite part of the course?
Anger, happiness and disgust were all especially helpful. I think anger was the most useful though as my misuse of it has been a root cause of problems and has distorted some of my other emotions.
Which part of the course did you find the most difficult, confusing or unhelpful?
I didn’t think confusion was as useful to me personally. I don’t deny experiencing it, but I think a lot of my confusion has stemmed from over thinking and not being direct with people who mean a lot to me. I have rarely experienced it when living my values.
Overall, how do you rate this course?S